Mother’s Day
Mothers Day: a devoted place on the calendar that I spent the majority of life honoring and cherishing my mother. With deepest appreciation now more than ever, I thank her for carrying me, raising me, and selflessly putting my needs and wants before her own.
Thinking back through life, the first memories I have are those of her comforting me and making me feel safe. Hudson was born just a week before Mother’s Day, and while the timing was profoundly meaningful, it didn’t quite sink in that the day was also inclusive of me with everything being so new. This year, as it turns out, I’m still finding myself questioning if I’m commendable of celebration on a day dedicated to mothers. Have I done everything perfectly? Definitely not. Do I love this boy with every ounce of my being? Yes. For 2 years day in and day out, I have relentlessly done the mom thing to the best of my ability. I would sacrifice anything and everything to ensure he gets the best chance at life possible.
On the other hand, in a world now complete with social media perfectionism and occasional mom shaming, it’s hard to truly believe that that is enough. What I do know, though, is that I rock him to sleep in the same chair now as I did the first day we brought him home, and I can literally feel my heart beaming with love and admiration. His budding and cognizant personality reminds me that I am in fact doing a good job. Our fleeting moments of connection throughout the passing days are my A+ on the parenting report card. When you start to compile the little things, the bigger picture of motherhood and all it entails becomes apparent. It’s not about perfection, but it’s definitely about the effort. The long days and the seemingly torturous moments of nuisance or drama are always trumped by the reward of overjoyed happiness and unconditional love.
Regardless of generation, parenting style, or family status, a mother who shows up is a mother worth celebrating. Today I’d like to celebrate and acknowledge all mothers carrying, raising, or remembering children- you’re doing an amazing job and you are so appreciated!
Love Momma Mills
My mom and I this Mother’s Day 🙂
